Heh, yeah, I know. It will happend, eventually, I just don't know when.
I tend to be a bit random with... well pretty much everything. I get very focused on stuff that I do. So focused in fact that pretty much everything else around me sort of... disapears... until I lose focus on it and my focus turns to something else which I focus very hard on for X amount of time... and repeat.
So when you see me dissapear from this site for various amounts of times, it's because I am focusing on something else... like playing games, watching tv-series, movies, anime, reading books, etc. The amount of time varies as well, anythign from a few hours, to as much as several months. You could almost call it a sort of tunnel vision... or pinpoint focus might be better. Once my focus moves elsewhere, I basicly "forget" about other things, until my gaze turns towards the "forgotten" thing again. I tend to enjoy what I am doing the most when I am that focused.
To some extent I do foresee that I might play MWO for maybe a week or two, and then just disapear for an extended period of time. And there could be any numbers of reasons for it. The game it's self, other games (new or old) catching my attention (again), or I might get cought up with watching tv-series/anime, or the few times that me and 2 of my friends actually still gather to play RPG's, etc.
So due to that, I have always been hesitant to join groups/guilds/simmilar in all new "mmo's" I play... until I have a feeling I might play it for a bit longer then usual. Most games (no matter which genre/type) tend to get anything from a few hours, to a month or two at the most, befor I stop playing them... even my "favorit games" don't tend to get more then a few weeks to 3 months. Unfortunatly for mmo's/online types of games, it is unusual for them to go past a week or two.
There are only 3 (technically 4) mmo/online games that has gone past 2-3 months.
Final Fantasy XI - 4 months.
Guild Wars (my "technically 4") - ~24+ months (I would have stopped playing it compleatly after 2 months, due to having reached max level after only 2-3 weeks, and after that feeling to stagnant, and because I found CoH... but I continued to play a little bit every now and then due to my best online friend played it, and wanted me to play it as well).
City of Heroes - 33 months over a 40 month period. This was THE mmo for me... and the game that I have probably played the most since I first started playing video games in 1990. I doubt I will ever find another MMO that pulls me in like this one did. This game is the reason I stopped playing FFXI (otherwise I would have played it for longer), and is also the game that compleatly stole me away from the majority of my Guild Wars gaming as well (I started playing GW about a month befor I found CoH).
Cultures Online - the most resent online game I have played for a prolonged period of time. I started in late January 2011, and I still play... oh hell... I just realized... the last time I was in the game was late October. O_o I have compleatly forgoten to even just check in daily.
Actually, around the last time I logged in there was when MWO was officialy announced, at which point my focus compleatly changed from playing it combined with watching tv-series (the type of game Cultures Online is, is the only type of game I am able to play and do other things at the same time... pretty much most other types of games are almost impossible for me to devide my focus with somehting else, like watch tv, or chat with people, or go to forums, etc, at the same time)... to being here on this forum reading and writing. Then Skyrim came out, and I focused on that, and then my focused went back here, and then moved on to a few other games, back here again, etc. Actually, I think part of the reason I have forgoten to check back into the game is due to that I have just not been watching many tv-series/animes since late October either... because if I had still been on that "tv'series wave" (I tend to refer to each period of time where I focus on one particular thing as a "wave"), I would probably also have been playing Cultures.
Damn this is really bad... because I am (or I guess "was" by now) one of my guilds "officers" (the step below the leader).
This really shows just how big of an effect my "focus" on something can have on other things. *is rubbing his forhead with an almost painful look on his face* I am not surpriced though, simmilar things have happened befor, both in some online games, and with stuff like forums and chatting in messengers etc.
So yeah... I am always hesitant to join groups... because I don't really know what I will do from one day to the next. If I do join a guild, I will at the most consider my self to be a "casual member". Even though I might not really seem like the "casual" type of gamer. And really I am not, I tend to be pretty hardcore (in the sence of how much time I tend to put in that is, and partly also how meticulous I tend to be)... I guess there are some several other things that you guys might notice about me that would point towards me being more of a hardcore type then anything else... But anything that has other people connected to it, like in a guild for example, I delibratly try and stay on the "casual" end of things. Like I never signed up for "guild activities" of any kind in neither GW or CoH... just because I was afraid of "what if I sign up, and on that day I suddenly don't show because I am doing something else!",
I never really trusted my self enough for that. I rather then just be available for them if I was online that day, and if someone did not show up or cancelled I would be there to step in if needed.
Oh well... once again I have smacked you guys in the face with a massive wall of text... so yeah... I am done for today... already 2am here... bedtime... I am going to "sussinana"
... ... don't bother trying to google translate that or something... it's a Swedish childish slang for going to bed to sleep, that grown ups sometimes say to small children.