--- If you are not interested in my personal opinion, please do not bother reading this thread and look for one that is more fitting your preferences. Thank you ---
1 - The Beginning
I don't really remember when I heard of MWO, but I think it was the german PC gaming magazine "PC Gamer" that wrote an article about it. I was in a supermarket, shopping food when I came by the shelf were they store the magazines.
I scanned it quickly and saw something familiar, the Centurion. I got really excited when I saw that they recently entered open beta and that the game is F2P.
So I bought that magazine, registred and downloaded the game on January 24th of 2013 (I know thats not exactly 18 months, but I felt like writing this thread).
2 - Getting addicted
Oh how I loved this game back then. I played WAY too much. My girlfriend back then was really tolerant when it came to my time spend on gaming but even she was getting annoyed. But this game had everything!
I love buying and upgrading things in games and in MWO I really felt like I "earned" that mech.
Several hundreds of hours were sunk into this game until...
3 - Finding my place
... the Tamar Jägers hit me. My unit leader wrote a message in the ingame chat that the TJs are looking for german speaking pilots. I visited the website and some other websites of german companies, but since I've always been a Steiner and they seemed really sympathic, I joined them on Feburary, 23rd 2013.
I LOVED being a part of a company thats growing and growing. Not long after I joined, the third company was founded and I was one of the first members, until something happened a few weeks ago. Playing the 8v8 matches with actual tactics was an awesome experience for me and I scored some top damage matches back then.
After a few months being a member of an active unit I realized that it was not longer MWO which was keeping me playing, the things that kept me from uninstalling and leaving MWO were my new friends. I also realized that MWO is lacking many things and that I would've been gone a long time ago if I did not join the Tamar Jägers.
This phase lasted approximately until mid 2013.
4 - Founding the Tamar Media Company (TMC)
I always liked making videos. I had a project assigned to me when I was in the 7th grade and my group and I totally went over the top; I spent many hours back then creating our little movie.
That's why I wanted to create videos of my new, favourite game.
I found people inside the Tamar Jägers and we began working on THIS video.
Shortly before we published it, we found our final name and some new people joined us.
I was still playing MWO 2 times a week during training and often in the afternoon with 3 other players, leveling some mechs.
But the most interesting part of MWO was making movies. I also did some private Photoshop work, ask the guys in the repainted concept art thread about these accidents

5 - Today
I am currently working with 6 incredibly talented and ambitious people on a new recruitement video and together with NGNG on Davion Blues.
I love being engaged in discussions at the forums and I still do my private art sometimes.
But I recently dropped out by myself of the third company of the Tamar Jägers, because I am not considering myself as active enough anymore.
And I did not play more than 2 hours of MWO in the last few weeks.
I wrote a thread some months ago, called "White Knights turn grey", which was kind of displaying the same thoughts I want to display here, but I deleted it, because it got invaded.
I gained some hope when UI 2.0 was released and I really thought "Finally, the real development can start, now they are going to do this smart."
I was hoping for some tank models, strapped to a simple AI, performing attacks on players just to make the games more interesting. I was hoping for a community map contest so we could finally get some more maps. I was hoping for the first phase of Community Warfare, which Bryan presented in September 2013.
But looking back to the beginning of this year, I was hoping for way way way too much. When we got the launch module, I got happy and thought "now we can make our OWN game!" and had a few evenings of fun. But only a few.
I am back at looking at the little thumbnail in my Windows taskbar and thinking: "Should I? Should I not?" and most of the time i start the game, drop in my freshly bought Hero Mechs and Alt+F4 the game after another boring match.
5 - Conclusion
I played 3384 matches, own 43 mechs, 8 of them are Hero mechs.
I own the Overlord package and the Masakari package, spent unknown amounts of €€€ on colors, premium time and camoschemes.
This is the game I've played the most in my life and the game which I connect the most with, but I don't find it anywhere near interesting right now.
My expectations are at an all time low and I idle in various teamspeaks, cutting videos or playing other games.
This is not a bye-bye thread.
This is not a troll thread.
This is not a "I could make it better by doing XY" thread.
I won't leave this game, but as I said not because of the game.
I just felt like saying this and giving you all an explanation why I am getting more and more inactive and lay out my point of view.
Yes I already took a break. From this game and from the TMC, like some of you suggested in my last thread
I want to conclude this with a final plea.
Please, for the sake of this game and the whole Mechwarrior and Battletech franchise, realize what you are doing wrong. Listen to the right guys in your community, take the feedback more serious and BE HONEST with us. Give me a reason to await the drops in MWO with my friends when I am at work.
Thanks for your time if your read all through this and please, try to stay constructive when answering to this.