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[The Gruntmaster 6000]

Hello all,

Many of you know this was an old sub account of Marack Drock's (a dear friend of mine). He recently had given this to me (I am a friend from college) but anyways... Marack is in trouble. On January 11th, Marack (Chris) attempted to commit suicide. He has survived but he is completely unstable mentally. He was extremely depressed (his best friend recently died actually), and he had just moved out of his old home. He appears to have tried to overdose. I just thought you should all know. This community has been a big part of his life, and I think he'd want you to know. I know he absolutely loved you guys, and I want to thank you for having been here for him. You all didn't know it but this community helped relieve him of a lot of stuff unknowingly.

Edited by The Advisor, 12 January 2016 - 09:40 AM.

[SnagaDance]

The Advisor, on 12 January 2016 - 09:39 AM, said:

You all didn't know it but this community helped relieve him of a lot of stuff unknowingly.

You know, I'm not that surprised really. In the time I've 'known' him on the forum I clearly got the impression that Marack is an intelligent young man, but also one whose passions run high, sometimes almost bordering on the obsessive when the subject is something he's passionate about.
While this could be just his youth I also sensed frustrations that didn't seem to have anything to do with the subject on hand.

But hey, this is a game about big robots battling it out, and I for sure have excised some demons from work through turning others mechs to scrap, though I've avoided the forums in those situations. Never post in an angry or frustrated mood I say.

Having lost a personal friend myself I know how hard it can be. Luckily for me I was in a good place at that time personally, with lots of loving people around me for support. With Marack being so passionate, already dealing with frustration from other sources and in a new environment, things can be radically different.

I fervently hope he will come out of this ok and that he will have the love and support of family and good friends like yourself to help him get back. And in the end I hope he will come out stronger than before.

Here's to you Marack! Get well, and I'll hope to see you on the forums again, better than ever, passionately arguing about the best Mechwarrior in fiction, LoTR, the underlying governmental systems of the IS states or anything else you contribute to. Know yourself to be worthy of existing and know that any pain can be overcome, even if you don't believe so at this moment in your life.

[Heffay]

That sucks.

[Threat Doc]

If you get to see him, let him know there are prayers going up for his recovery and well-being, please?

[The Gruntmaster 6000]

Kay Wolf, on 12 January 2016 - 12:13 PM, said:

If you get to see him, let him know there are prayers going up for his recovery and well-being, please?

I will, thank you.

Edited by The Advisor, 13 January 2016 - 09:03 AM.

[t Khrist]

~sigh~

Just.. tell him I hope he's back on his feet soon, there's been something missing from the forums without him around lately.

[GonaDie]

That's horrible!

I consider Marack to be my ''internet buddy'' and I was sincerely shocked to hear that he is in such trouble.

Tell him that GonaDie is praying for his wellbeing. I really hope he can get trough this.

[Kalimaster]

I was unaware of his troubles. Thank you for posting this. Hope he gets well soon.

[t Khrist]

Any update on Drock?

[Omi_]

I'm sorry to hear this!

Depression can be a tough thing. It isn't easy to see how things can improve when you're deep in that hole, but I hope he understands that the people who frequent these boards would love to see his name come up now and again.

Life is a bit like a rollercoaster, but it indeed does go on. It also gets better hereafter.

[TheSilken]

Wow that sucks

[Nightmare1]

Kay Wolf, on 12 January 2016 - 12:13 PM, said:

If you get to see him, let him know there are prayers going up for his recovery and well-being, please?

Ditto

[Hex Pallett]

Oh man. I could tell from his posts that he was troubled. He was a sharp young man and I'm so, so sorry to hear that - being clinically depressed myself I could absolutely relate to the feelings of being slowly eaten up from the inside.

Best luck to him and may God bless him.

Edited by Helmstif, 19 January 2016 - 08:25 PM.

[The Gruntmaster 6000]

Update. Marack is doing better. He was having health complications as a side effect of the overdose but he is recovering slowly. Mentally he is still gone. He won't talk barely at all and when he does its usually just one word replies.

Edited by The Advisor, 20 January 2016 - 06:10 AM.

[Nightmare1]

Glad to hear he's out of the danger zone and wish him a speedy recovery!

[Catalina Steiner]

Please send him our regards and yes, a speedy recovery. Mechwarrior veterans are tough guys... he will make it.

[Stingray Productions]

Any way we can help, let us know. We are all family!

[Generic Internetter]

How old is the guy?

My life basically sucked till I lost it all in the crash of 2008-2009 at the age of 30.
Five years later, I'm happily married, we have two kids, and life is good. I never expected it to be like this. NEVER.

My life is still full of problems, but nowadays they're the good kind of problems.
Once upon a time I hid from repo men.
Nowadays I play hide-n-seek with my daughter while my son sits here dropping me to tier 4 AGAIN.

Tell him to push forward and not just sit waiting for things to come to him. Actively look for some opportunity away from his current lifestyle. Maybe a new job/career or - like me - a whole new country. If there is any kind of drugs/booze/smokes involved, cut them out 100% immediately.
Whatever the case, sticking in the same place doing the same things will give you the same sad results. Change it up. Take a risk, try a new life.

It gets better, I promise you.

Edited by Generic Internetter, 20 January 2016 - 07:38 PM.

[Hex Pallett]

Generic Internetter, on 20 January 2016 - 07:32 PM, said:

How old is the guy?

If I recall correctly I think he's not even 20. Sigh.

[Atlai]

Poor Marack, I hadn't seen him post for a while now and had wondered if he was taking a break from the game, I never would have thought it to be this reason though

This really hits home, if I remember correctly he is only 18-19 years old, and when I was his age I actually attempted suicide a few times. I was injured pretty badly and I thought it would never get better, so I wanted to die. Eventually it took my best friend punching me in the face to get over it, and I guess that made something change in me because I haven't felt that way since. Although physical violence is never a good thing to do to someone who is depressed, and I would not recommend anyone try that to 'cure' someone, it just happened to snap me out of it. And hey, life eventually got better for me, and I'm the happiest I've been in years. So you can tell him as cheesy as it sounds it does actually get better, it just sucks now.

Depression is very serious and very horrible, my thoughts and agnostic prayers go out to the guy, he was a joy to talk to and argue pointlessly with.

He is pretty smart, eventually his logical side will kick in and he should be fine.

Thanks for letting us know.

Edited by Mason West, 20 January 2016 - 10:34 PM.