But I still am having the worst experience with MWO, I want to love this game but nothing about it is allowing that to happen. So I hopped into a bunch of games today specifically because of the free Centurion event and I have it now finally after what at least seemed like hours of gameplay today but I have been nothing but angry since I started playing today and because I needed to count how many matches I won so I would know when I would be done and would get the centurion, it became very clear to me that I lose a lot of games. Now in my stats my win/loss ratio is fairly even and usually remains as such but that isn't very fun, when I login and lose two matches in a row I instantly alt+f4 the game, I refuse to play a game in which I am having such a bad time so consistently.
At first I though it was just me, I'm a bad player and I was at first, I think I'm much better now, here are my stats as of today.

My K/D is fine, exactly where I want my K/D in any competitive game, but my win/loss ratio at least in my eyes is abysmal. Nearly 1:1 is just not a great ratio, to me this translates to having fun half the time I play this game, the other half is the worst thing ever!
The problem is I just don't have another option, this is the only game out right now in which I can hop into a mech's cockpit and blast some lasers into other mechs, I like Mechwarrior, I like the slower paced action, the throttle, everything. What I don't like is having a bad time either because I got matched with a bad team or maybe this game just has an awful matchmaking system so good players are getting matched against new players or it's a big mixed hodge podge, I don't know but it's frustrating getting into a match, doing everything I can to communicate, stick with my team, fire at common targets etc. and yet I still end up getting clobbered or we lose because all of my team mates decide to behave like bafoons.
I played a match earlier, it was a Skirmish, I spawned in the match started, I went ahead and follow three other guys in my lance, why I do not know but I did. Of course we run into the entire enemy force, two of the guys are way behind me and the other is running out ahead of me, he takes a bunch of damage but gets a kill, he later dies. I retreat back a way, let the other two guys catch up, they fumble around getting picked apart by four or so lighter mechs so I storm in and knockout 4 lights with the AC/20, kill shot on each, then finally the rest of the team catches up, I get one other kill against a medium and we eventually win. There are people like this in almost every match I play and it's not like I'm devoid of mistakes I have done the exact same thing a couple times and spelled defeat for my team and often times my deaths are due to my carelessness. However a lot more than I would like I end up getting abandoned on the front line, or I'm sitting there doing the heavy lifting, trying my best to dish out damage and not take too much myself while my team mates are timidly huddling around a wall conserving their ammo, there have been times where my entire team does this and ends up getting surrounded and just demolished because they're all in one spot or they go through a bottleneck and one-by-one get picked off as if they thought they stood a chance!
It's just maddening! And as someone who doesn't like matching with other players it's just a hugely frustrating experience and because there's no other option for a mechwarrior style experience I feel like I have to just keep ramming my head into this brick wall and try to savor the victories no matter how spread out and random they feel.
Bot matches would go a super long way to remedy this issue for me although I know the status of any kind of single player and how that type of feature is seen around these parts, but I'm never going to support this game with real money when I feel like the game is having fun with me rather than the way it should be which is me having fun playing the game.
A bit of a vent I suppose, maybe I'm alone on this but man I wish I could enjoy this more than I do.