I believe it is maybe my turn now to share what I asked everyone else to do.
Thank you everyone that has taken the time to comment and or donate, both of these things go a long way in helping with a dark situation. No one ever wants to know what it is like to have a loved one in this type of situation though many of us have. Some of you have had a happier ending then I am, others worse. Regardless we all know the pain of the situation and thank you those that have shared this with me because it certainly helps me keep my strength for the one that I love.
I was recruited to join the Isengrim in fall of 2013. I had been wandering from unit to unit staying long enough to participate in training programs or setting them up and moving on to the next. While I had been playing MWO for a few years by this point I had only just started to fully move from playing on my ps3 to here, mostly because of toxic communities. I had hoped, and thanks to friends like Richard Hardslab and others, to find a better place to play by coming to the MWO community to stay. Sadly though I experienced several units that were not comfortable with female gamers....some were downright aggressive in ways that you should not act towards not just a woman but anyone.
So for me it was rather surprising when Mech the Dane (yep it wasn't Dax that recruited me) asked me to join them on the Isengrim teamspeak and drop with them a bit. I spent the next month getting to meet people like Greymage, Stormwolf, The Pooch, jiyn, and so many others. Absolutely wonderful men that gave me a home for the first time ever on MWO. There they treated me not just like some person...but like a real woman. It was also because of Greymage, Dane, Pooch, and a few others that Dax and I ever even met. Which was interesting since he was the second in command of the Isengrim then.
I spent the first month of my time with Isengrim mostly dropping with Dane and Stormwolf. It was his and others suggestions that got me to sit down and talk with Dax one night, they had pointed out to me that he and I had a lot in common that I was not aware of....the next thing Dax and I realized is that we had talked the whole night through. Then it happened again....and again.
He and I later left Isengrim for our own reasons. There are some great people in Isengrim, and some not so great. But I have been asked why I do not have more of an issue with Dane. And here is why. He and I may have our differences and our different perspectives....but I would not have met the man I love if it hadn't been for him. So all nonsense aside...I'd rather be grateful for things like that then holding grudges, justified or otherwise.
But that is how I met the pilot that has been the other half of my team ever since. It is very strange now doing drops without him by my side...and for now until I know that he is doing significantly better I have decided to shelve my assaults. It doesn't feel right without his trebuchet at my side. So instead I'll try to continue what he has taught me.
Edited by FaythoftheLost, 24 January 2016 - 06:52 AM.