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[Duke Falcon]

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Because that. And because I know when I sunk into a loosing stance. You know no matter how many times I already won. I would lost but once.
Currently I need to re-think so-many things, reconsider directives, aims and goals. This war took since a while and time is yield to prepare for a humiliating defeat. It is not about optimism or pessimism. I learned on a medical university. I know a lot and the adage is true: Knowledge brings fear! It strips you from hope because it let no room from blindness of emotional wishes. Knowledge works with facts.
On the other hand the World and all it's knowledge may not seen something like me. I can still win despite the odds, I did it earlier. Just the chances of that it would happen again is so low that I would not bet on it.
Ja, I prepared to face Fate and Time. Why should I fear any of those?

[BLACKR0SE]

Duke Falcon, on 04 June 2023 - 10:55 PM, said:

Because that. And because I know when I sunk into a loosing stance. You know no matter how many times I already won. I would lost but once.
Currently I need to re-think so-many things, reconsider directives, aims and goals. This war took since a while and time is yield to prepare for a humiliating defeat. It is not about optimism or pessimism. I learned on a medical university. I know a lot and the adage is true: Knowledge brings fear! It strips you from hope because it let no room from blindness of emotional wishes. Knowledge works with facts.
On the other hand the World and all it's knowledge may not seen something like me. I can still win despite the odds, I did it earlier. Just the chances of that it would happen again is so low that I would not bet on it.
Ja, I prepared to face Fate and Time. Why should I fear any of those?

Where ignorance is bliss, ’tis folly to be wise.

[Duke Falcon]

I know this little eyot of mine seems to be only mine place to mediate about the "stuffz 'o' Life".
No prob, no cons, no troubles, no dragonz...
But let us stir the water abit, so to sayeth!
I made this small dumb-dump for almost a week for a friend of mine. Not sure why I did it at the first place, not remember the reason really. It were a hell of thing for me. All shall I say "a challenge"? WTF?! Challenge?!?
Mmmmm... It tells everything I know. Waste almost a week for this is dumb consider that used to be it took way less time. Albeit used to I were different in many ways. Things are changing and so does people one may say, I know.
Anyway I think remove my original signo and applied my digital-signo on it helped quite a lot. I think. Hard to tell. To many things are unsure but hey! This IZ da Life, ja?
Mayhaps needless to note that the friend who got this were delighted. A piece of "art" (I hereby apology for use this word because I offended lots of real artists with it I know) what caused joy and happyness for someone. It should be feel good, right? Kinda?
Still... I cannot even know. But perhaps I may not should to know... I am not god to decide, not have the right to question or doubt? What and where I missed the point?
Because whenever I look at this thing I feel deep inside I missed the point, I missed something. Where should be content feeling about made someone happy there is but void. I knot know how to feel about someone else's happyness. But I know that it is bad...
I know the picture is also bad, maybe that is the reason of the "void". Not know. And it would not be me who would decide this...
Ah, my folly! Just enjoy your stay in my eyot and ignore the "old grumpy"... I am more or less harmless (unlike my mechs )...

[BLACKR0SE]

Have you ever watched the Hannibal series? He reminded me of that, harmless man.

https://www.imdb.com/title/tt2243973/

Edited by AyKu, 28 June 2023 - 01:28 PM.

[Duke Falcon]

I started a Sorceress yesterday in Diablo 2... Now she is level 25

Time to meditate? A little monster-massacre is almost equal with it

[Duke Falcon]

I managed again to finally finish some old but not (quite) forgotten stuffs. And it is fits so much for this topic!
A nice autumn forest, very calming and tranquil. Just would be easier to accomplish! It were sometimes a b*tthurt, really...
DA link: https://www.devianta...ories-974375598
And the picture:

That "reduce noise" filter gave it a nice oldschool PC pixel-esque touch.

And as always, if you are here, take your time to meditate and calm or ease your mind in my little eyot! Everyone is welcomed, as always!

[Duke Falcon]

Today were goulash-day. Goulash is a nice soup. I like it and can cook very good goulash myself.
Yepp!

Maybe the eyot is large enough for a goulash-festival..?

[Duke Falcon]

Hmmm... Times makes one busy or time itself busy?
I managed to buy a custom platinum collection and support the brave compers a bit via the support pack. Not much but that were all I could do...
I felt myself like a walking sh!tdump since last friday. I had a test on Monday, with a result at Tuesday: CoVid positive!
Today I told that to my oncologist, who were far from happy. Nor were I happy, sure... Now things a bit "funny" because thanks to the fine chemo-cocktails I consumed my body has negligible (sh!tbad) resistance. Oooo-yeah, baby! Partytime!
F**K!!!
Luckily I managed to finish two commissions what were enough for the Urbie-bundle two-two-C pack. That's at least positive, not regret that. Now wait and see and try feel less sh!tty but so far it not works...
Well, at least this is not (intented to be) a farewell...